last 5 wrds:

"goodbye "

This was my final goodbye email to Kaycee:


Your sunbeams and your pounces live inside me every day. They trickle from me into every person I meet.

People you've never met --who've never even read your blog -- feel the warmth of KCSunshine. You make the world better. Whether you're on a basketball court, in a hospital bed, on a beach, or watching over us from above.

Millions of people skitter about their lives all over the world. I am so blessed to have skittered next to you.

When I was 16, the book "Cat's Cradle" changed my life. The most influencial part was the Last Rites of the invented religion of Bokonism:

"God made mud,

God got lonesome,

So God said to some of the mud, 'Sit up!'

'See all I've made, the hills, the sea, the sky, the stars.'

And I was some of the mud that got to sit up and look around.

Lucky me, lucky mud.

I, mud, sat up and saw what a nice job God had done.

'Nice going, God!

Nobody but You could have done it, God! I certainly couldn't have.

I feel very unimportant compared to You.

The only way I can feel the least bit important is to think of all the mud

that didn't even get to sit up and look around.

I got so much, and most got so little.

Thank you for the honor!'

Now mud lies down again and goes to sleep.

What memories for mud to have!

What interesting other kinds of sitting-up mud I met!

I loved everything I saw!

Good Night.

I will got to heaven now.

I can hardly wait . . .


You are some of the most beautiful sitting-up mud I've had the pleasure to know.

With surging love,


And her reply:

I love you John ;-)
That'll never change but I think you know that.
You've given me so much...your family is beautiful and did an awesome job sending you out to teach the world.
I would have written my life a little different but what I've had has been the very best. It's b/c of the type of love I've been blessed to have and to hold forever and ever.

I think we make awesome *sitting up mud* don't you /wink

It's been a hard road for me. You helped me reach within myself and let my inner strength shine. That was an invaluable gift to give and thank you isn't near enough.
All I can continue to give you is my love...
I'll always be shining and winking at you from happy John!
Don't make me come give you a frisKC spiritual /pounce
hmm that might be fun. ;-)

I love you forevery and every
I'm blogging...until the beginning...celebrating life.

*blows you a kiss*
I'll be watching over worries.

sending you masses of sunshine and love


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