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Tomorrow is May. That means I’ll be 30 in less than a month.

THIRTY.

I feel good about this milestone. I hang out naked, wear my hair long, dress funny, and live a playful life. When I was a kid, I figured I’d be a button-down cog in the machine by this time. The fact that I can be a “grown-up” and still be “child-like” makes me feel good. It’s encouraging. (notice I said “child-like,” not “childish.”)

The internal question of “what do I want to do when I grow up?” takes on new meaning at 30. If I have dreams of being a fireman or astronaut, I need to either get my ass in gear, or work on letting go of those dreams.

Every birthday I think it’s important to look at the past year and confirm that you’re on the right path. As I approach 30, I think it’s even more important.

I hope I don’t freak out and go buy a red sports car.

So my goals for the coming month involve much introspection. Am I where I want to be on my path? Are there long term goals that I need to start focusing on? Are there current patterns I need to let go of? Where do I stand on Career? Family? Spiritual Growth?

Is this a time when I need to concentrate on steering my life? Or relax and let the cosmic stream take me?

I think it’s a combination of both…or rather, a delicate balance between steering and drifting. Wish me luck.

 


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