I sat down to write and realized I�ve never done anything valiant in the name of love. I�ve never quit my job or moved across country or tattooed a name.
I�ve never rode up on a white horse or rescued someone from a castle tower.
All I could think of was a few trips to pick up people from the airport during rush hour.
I started to feel really selfish.
What *have* I done for love?
I sulked at my computer.
Then, I got an instant message from someone enjoying the sense of community at Citizenx.com (the webcam community I ran).
�You know what's cool about this moment? the stupid stuff that separates us -- your bleeding heart liberal causes, my born-again perspective -- the shit don't matter. maybe I'm starting to trip to your vibe. You make it easy to *love*, john.�
And *that* made me feel pretty damn good.
And I was reminded that I do a lot for love.
I *express* a lot of love.
I really focus on trying to put as much love into the world as possible.
I realized about 5 years ago that love was not a limited resource.
That I didn�t have to be guarded with who I gave love to.
It never runs out.
And the more I express, the more I am capable of.
I realized that, in fact, I�ve dedicated a lot of my life to pushing the ability of the web to express love. CitizenX.com. HugNation.com. Radio.cockybastard.com. Those were definitely done for love.
I�ve been feeling like these projects were a failure recently. But perhaps what I�ve been working for is exactly what that instant message said: I made it easier for him to love.
Perhaps I�ve done something valiant after all.
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