I had many real-life connections this weekend with people who understood where my head and heart is. People outside what I normally consider to be “my people.” I often assume that people need to be on the fringe to “get” me. But a few wonderful talks with older lawyers and clergymen confirm that to be untrue.
This makes me feel wonderful.
The irony is beautiful.
I seem to be becoming more of a sex-focused novelty to the online tribe I feel closest to. While at the same time I’m building deeper connections with tribes I assumed would be at odds with me.
It was a shock to read so many comments of people finding me “foolish.”
I think there are vast misunderstandings, but the comments have some merit (which is why they hurt).
It is unsettling to hear myself called a "fool" when in my heart I know that I am growing spiritually like I never have before. Spending time with my grandfather has been a huge part of that. I’m sorry the Sex stuff gets so much more attention than the Caleb posts.
(And, yes, Caleb and I have discussed Globalgasm. )
To clarify why I put so much energy into Globalgasm and sex:
My assumption was that sex was a good medium for talking about the interconnectedness of people. To me, sexual union is sacred --Perhaps the most obvious touch to the divine realm in daily living (Looking into a babies’ eyes is another example.)
Obviously, I am wrong.
“Sex” clouds the concepts of love and connection for most people.
I apologize to anyone who feels I let down by following this path. I can only say that I was striving to listen to my inner truth.
I still believe there is powerful lessons of love and healing in sex, but I clearly lack the skills to communicate them.
I will still follow my truth, I just need to decide how to do it, where to focus, and what to share.