A very sexy friend of mine is dealing with the grief of a breakup. Since I was dealing with the same issues, her suggestion of being �commiserating cuddle buddies� sounded pretty damn good.
She asked if I would come over Wed night.
When I showed up, she was in an oriental robe. �Mind keeping me company while I take a bath?�
The house was dark except for candles around the tub. I sat on a towel on the bathroom floor as she groomed in a blanket of bubbles.
We talked mostly about her ex.
She was confused and distraught.
When I offered to scrub her back she said, �No, it would make me sad�My ex used to do that.�
Minutes later, the house was rattling with a banging on the door.
BAM, BAM, BAM.
BAM, BAM, BAM.
*riiiiiing*
She was naked and in the bath.
I was there, sitting on the bathroom floor, in the candle light.
Her raging ex was 20 feet away and banging on the door.
�Did you park next to me!?�
�yes��
BAM, BAM, BAM.
The thought never occurred to me to be secretive about my visit. I don�t really know how to be sneaky. I live in a webcam house! There is no room for bullshit in my life.
BAM, BAM, BAM.
�I�m scared,� she said with panic in her eyes, � He has a violent side.�
I found out later he was also a martial arts expert.
Whoa. I had fallen into the middle of a horror/suspense movie. Or an episode of cops.
�Would he beat me up� I asked.
Her pause made it clear that I should be scared, too.
What a terrible place to be.
Hiding on the bathroom floor. Lights out. Afraid to move. Not wanting him to hear that I�m in here. Feeling scared. And embarrassed. And powerless.
If this were a comedy, it would be the moment the pathetic nice-guy character pees his pants to the derision of all around him. Asserting that, however nice, he is less of a man than the Bogart/Gable/James Dean character.
I wanted to go home.
But I was afraid to move.
I was even afraid to go pee because I didn�t want him to hear I was there.
Eventually he left.
But I was rattled. And humiliated. And emasculated.
And more than a bit bewildered about how my life got so out of whack so quickly.
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